My Mom passed 1yr ago DEC30th

[dreammountainminis]

I am having a very hard time coping with mom passing away it is hard to believe it has been almost a year that she has been gone it hurt so bad to go through the holidays without her..The only reason I even tried to do the holidays was for my dad and my kids..I think winter makes it twice as hard also because I cant really go out side and do anything ...Since my mom passed my dad had a few bad spells but since we started him on goji juice he has done so much better...

My mom was my rock and I always turned to her for advice . I miss her so much and i was the only child between mom and dad and i just feel so alone. I cherish every moment I have with my dad . I turned to writing as marty did here is a poem I wrote.

Without You

I don't see you , but I hear your voice,

I smell your scent, I can feel you close .

Lonely I handle it ,without you I walk

when we used to walk together.

Knowing I'm alone I go on I walk alone,

But know you remain with me.

As I hear your voice as I walk alone,

Alone I shall be even thou I can wake

and was holding you , until I opened my eyes alone.

Alone I am unless I was dreaming cuz in my dreams

your always there I can touch you, hold you and

forget for awhile that i'm alone....

Thanks for letting me share .. :no:

 

[MiniforFaith]

I know exactly how you feel. It was 4 years for my mom Oct 3... I miss her more and more. She was my rock and the only one I could turn to. YOur poem has me in tears as it hits the nail on the head. Faith was only 17 mon. when mom died and she really made my mom light up, so did my son. They lost their glow, too when we lost mom. If you ever need an ear or shoulder, I'm here for you!! We have a lot in common!! Please take care,

Jodie

 

[Marsha Cassada]

For me it was my dad. I lost him 9 years ago and sometimes it feels like just yesterday. I used to just be driving down the interstate and tears would come, just thinking about how I missed him. No one can take his place in the family. I wish I had known to ask him how he dealt with losing HIS parents. We just don't know the right questions to ask for the future advice and consolation we are going to need.

So sorry for you. Cherish your dad.

Marsha

 

[iluvwalkers]

I AM SO SORRY FOR ALL OF YOUR LOSSES. MY PARENTS ARE GETTING OLDER AND BOTH HAVE LOTS OF MED. PROBLEMS. I OFTEN THINK ABOUT THE DAY THEY WILL LEAVE ME AND IT HURTS TO MY CORE. I DON'T KNOW HOW I WILL LIVE WITHOUT THEM. MY HEART ACHES FOR YOU ALL, NIKKI

 

[Marty]

My mom was my rock too and I very much understand how you are feeling so alone. A home without a mom sometimes becomes just a house.

Mom always made things right that were wrong.

She always could fix everything.

No matter what.

She was very wise.

I decided to take my cue from her early on, and try to become the mother to my kids that she was to me; and I think that was the best gift I could ever give to my boys.......but that always was a hard act to follow......very large shoes to try to fill. But I do think I did my best to make her proud for the most part.

When you loose your mom, a big part of you vanishes, and that is when that "I feel so lost and alone" part sets in. Because when you need your mom, and we all need our mom's......there is no one else that we can turn to that understands like a mom does. But somehow, with my mom's passing, it doesn't hurt nearly as much as loosing a child. It's a different loss. Hard to explain. But now I understand what she went through when my brother was killed.

I love the tribute that you wrote for your mom and I am glad that you can feel her near.

She does too.

 

[HobbsFarm]

[SIZE=12pt]I am sorry for all of your lost loved ones. I know that it must be so hard adjusting to life without them, if you're ever able to. My mom is my rock too. She has made me want to be the best mother that I can be. ((((((((HUGS)))))))) to you in the lonely time... Shannon[/SIZE]

 

[Valerie]

Oh my gosh, do I know what you are saying. My Mom just passed away on 11-14 and Thanksgiving & x-mas were so hard to get through and to make it worse, my Mom would have been 70 tomorrow....yet another day I have to get through.

I still have my Dad, thank goodness, but Dad's and Mom's take up different places in our hearts. It was sooooo hard to leave my Dad's place yesterday to drive home, I think I cried for half of the 2 1/2 hour drive. I hope this starts getting easier.

I loved your poem, it was sooooo very true. I am also sorry you don't have siblings to turn too, that is one thing I have as support, we have 7 kids in the family, so we are really leaning on each other.

Please know I am thinking of you and I am always here if you need someone to talk to.

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[dreammountainminis]

Thanks everyone for understanding ...I just have this endless feeling of being a little child lost and all alone And I feel like a baby and I'm 30 ..How and why things can bring us down so fast and so hard is hard for me to understand....

 

[strass]

30 is too young to be without a Mom. I know that it happens to a lot of people...but it shouldn't.

It's my belief that your Mother is now bugging our Heavenly Father to keep a close eye on you.

My condolences...hope you feel better soon.

 

[dreammountainminis]

Today is the day mom passed one yr ago at 4:12 am she has been gone 1yr ...I never thought this could happen but I think I've been stressing so much about it I hurt every muscle in my body hurts ..I think i'm just gonna take a break and stay in bed ...I have even taken advil and still cant get the pain to go away..Hopefully this passes soon... :no: