Aftercare Dr. visit...

[rockin r]

The Alien is back with full vengence and aggression. It has found avenues to survive and go around the plates. My heart is severely stressed. I have blacked out a few times recently. The chemo pills have not worked. All that stomach sickness, hair loss for nothing. The Drs are back at consulting with each other. Dr. said there may be nothing more they can do. Dr. said they can not control it. It has attached to the Illiac artery in my left leg. If they try to block it off, the blood flow can not return from my leg and I will lose my left leg, so thats out. I am on a new semi experimental drug Tramadol for long term pain management. It also somehow works as an antidepressant. but they are highly addictive. We will keep trudging forward and praying for one of these surgeries to work. I am going to file for disability

...That is the one thing that I did NOT want to do. To me that is giving up hope. It may be awhile before i get back to the forum. I don't know how Linda did it, God rest her soul... We just wanted to say Thank You to everyone who never gives up hope on us..Art and Theresa

 

[luv2ridesaddleseat]

Theresa, you can fight this! You are NOT a quitter. Let the Drs. consult. They WILL figure this out. Good Drs. thrive on this kind of stuff. THEY WILL FIGURE THIS OUT!!!!! I will be praying for you that they do this quickly!

 

[AppyLover2]

Filing for disability is CERTAINLY not giving up. It just means you're removing some of the stress and giving your body more energy to fight this alien. I'm sorry to hear it isn't gone yet but will definitely continue to pray that your Doctors come up with a successful remedy soon. Remember.....it wasn't too awfully long ago that you couldn't find a Doctor to treat you. Finding one was the beginning of beating this thing. Keep your chin up and know that we're here for you if and when you need us.

 

[Valerie]

Oh Theresa,

Please don't give up, we are all still hoping and praying for you....and please do not look at disability as "giving up"...it's not, goodness gracious, you have to do everything in your power to fight this alien in your body. I know you and Art have had such a rough time and please know I think of you both often, and although I have never met either of you in person, I do care.

I am sure the Doctors will consult continously and I hope the new meds help with the pain management and they can get the black-outs under control.

I am so sorry........but please don't shut us out, everyone on the forum is here for you and even if you can just stop in & post a hello, please do........ I love to hear what your horses are up to, etc.

Hugs sweetie!

 

[muffntuf]

Theresa - disability is a break not giving up. You need to look at it that way - its a break, gives you time to recover!

Hang in there - still thinking and praying for you!

 

[Marty]

Do I hear negativity coming from you young lady? Oh no you don't! Disability no way means giving up hope. People file for disability for a whole lot less than you have and you need to give yourself a good break already and accept the help and get on it. Give the new meds time to work and before you know it, those doctors will consult and come up with a new game plan. Be ready for it because YOU CAN DO IT! OH yes you can cause we said so!

 

[Minimor]

Well shoot, I had hoped that alien was down & out but it's a stubborn thing.

As the others have said, taking disability is not giving up. You're just doing what you need to do to allow your body to rest & keep fighting this.

Hang in there Theresa, we're still praying for you.

 

[SampleMM]

You hang in there Theresa. We're all praying and pulling for you!

 

[sfmini]

I am so sorry, but please don't give up, please keep fighting.

I think of you daily and hope for the best.

Like the others said, disability will be a way to help you heal and rest.

Hang in there.

 

[kaykay]

Many people have to go on disability while they get better! Take the time to rest your body as it has been through so much. Sending more prayers

Kay

 

[Pepipony]

You keep fighting this alien. Disability IS NOT GIVING UP. It is giving you the time and strength to fight that alien B*****d. I know its hard to decide to go it, took me 3 years, but its worth it. You are worth it. Think of it as combat pay for your fight

or alien hunt, whichever you prefer. keep fighting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[ChrystalPaths]

Ah now that one hurt, you took it right on the chin and it knocked you on yer butt.

NOW, negativity just won't do, file for disability and settle into battle mode from home..you have lots to do there and can fight a grand fight. Use the meds Hun, may I send you some Reiki as well and add you to the Monday night healing several of my friends and I do? We work with Gini's Alana, we included Linda as well til she passed, by your leave we would add you. Hugs and lots of light.

 

[rockin r]

Thanks Guys...Trust me I am not giving up, I know that it sounds like I am. I just feel like hope for killing this monster is slipping away... I am having a MAJOR pitty party for myself right now and I am scared to death again. I got up and went to work this am. Not going to do me any good being at home right now. I am going to talk to the partners about going part time, they have offered it before. In a day or so I will be done "partying" and getting on with it...Thanks for your support..Theresa

 

[Connie P]

Theresa,

You remain on my prayer list and I know if anyone can beat this it is you! Hugs friend!

 

[Davie]

Theresa--keep on "Keeping On", I know how tough you are and yes, we all need to have a pitty party every now and then--been there done that myself. Like you said give me a minute and I'll pick myself up and resume the fight like the trooper I know you are.

You and Art are always in my thoughts and prayers. I think the part time work might be good for you as I know you like to stay active and being around other people will help keep you mentally stimulated and not totally worried about the "alien".

I saw Jasmine the other day and she is doing great and has settled into her new home nicely.

 

[hobbyhorse23]

Think of it as combat pay for your fight

or alien hunt, whichever you prefer.

"Combat pay" ... I like it!

Great way to think of it.

Leia

 

[River Wood]

Soo sorry to hear

 

[Christina_M]

I am going to talk to the partners about going part time, they have offered it before.

That's right...stay strong. About the disability...First let me say that I may be wrong, but I figured it's worth telling you in case I'm not. I've heard that disability is based on the hours you worked when you went on disability. You might want to check on that before going part-time so you can get full disability pay. I like the think of it as combat pay! You seem to be very dedicated to your work, just like me. When I'm sick or should be resting like now, (I had hand surgery Mon.) I can't sit still. I hate sitting here when there are so many things I could be doing. I realized yesterday after I did too much that I should just sit here and watch tv and rest, so my body can fight and heal instead of using my energy to do things that I want to do like laundry. You deserve to be able to rest and get well.

I've had regular Tramadol before and they told me that it was physcologically addictive but not physically addictive, so that's good. They worked well for me. I slowly decreased the dose to get off of them and had no problems with addiction. I'm praying for you and I'm hopeful that the doctors will come up with a solution and you will be good to go in no time.

 

[HGFarm]

Disability has NOTHING to do with giving up!! It is a helping hand for you while you are going through a hard time here. We KNOW you are NEVER going to give up, so don't even think like that!!! I am SO sorry though, to hear this news and thought they were going to be able to get a handle on this better.

 

[eagles ring farm]

I am going to talk to the partners about going part time, they have offered it before.

..First let me say that I may be wrong, but I figured it's worth telling you in case I'm not. I've heard that disability is based on the hours you worked when you went on disability. You might want to check on that before going part-time so you can get full disability pay.

Great thinking Christina please do check into this Teresa we would hate to see you get shorted on something you have paid into all your working life. Disability is something that belongs to you and is there if and when you need the help, so don't think of it as giving up, it will help with financial stress and let you get the rest you need to fight that alien

Praying the answer is right around the next corner for your doctors. ((((((HUGS))))))))