[SIZE=14pt]When I realized this evening that she was only staying to help me cope..... I knew that the only thing I could do was let her go. I really believe she hung in all this week because of me.... I feel really bad about that now..... I should have known it before.... but I guess I didnt really want to hear it..... I mentioned to Bonnie that I was having trouble figuring out what she was trying to say this time.... "Someone is trying to tell me something " I said........ Wish I had listened before. She had been trying to tell me for about 10 days... I just couldnt let myself hear her. It was like Tess and the baby were calling her.... she got really restless, wanted out of her stall.... I told her to be still and rest. Then I said "if you decide that you want to go it is ok... I will be ok" the next time I went out with her meds she was gone. She must have gone right after I talked to her.[/SIZE]
Lyn