I have been keeping up with your posts and even though I may not post anything to them, just know my heart breaks for you. I have been there, lost the other half of my heart. I know its hard. I also said the same thing to myself, What am I doing to do? Well the answer didn't come quick and it sure wasn't easy, but in the end what I did was live. If you ever want to talk, I am here. If not for my closest friends, I wouldn't have made it. So reach out if you need to, there is always someone there to lend a shoulder to cry on. And even now, almost 5 years later, I still cry and I still need the shoulders. Take care of yourself.
Karen