Mini losses and many blessings

[CAM]

[SIZE=14pt]You know God is with you through this and will bring you peace in time. Take care of yourself. You have been through so much in such a short time.[/SIZE]

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[crponies]

[SIZE=18pt]It is just like the parable Jesus told about the houses and their foundations. You have built on the Rock and now that storms have come, your house stands secure despite the rain, the wind, and the floods. God bless you. [/SIZE]

 

[hairicane]

I think every one of us has those times that we wonder why me. Well u just posted the perfect answer. Well said! With the good comes the bad and that is just the way life goes. Its your turn for some good now so hang in there!!! Jen

 

[Mercysmom]

My life belongs to the Lord God first......all these things that I have belong to him and I only have stewardship over them.

I felt like Job this morning minus the boils.... He lost his family, his friends, his herds of cattle....everything and his wife told him to" Curse God and die" Job could not and neither can I. These beloved horses are not mine anyway. God told me today amid my tears that He still loves me and I was losing focus of that. He said to count my mini (many) blessings and rejoice in what I do have

If this whole weekend had not occured I would never have seen the side of my husband that I did when he was trying to get that baby out friday.He is not a demonstrative person when it comes to love languages but that was the ultimate gift of love from him. That is something I will always cherish.

I am not so physically aflicted that I cant enjoy the life I have restricted tho it is.

I have been blessed with friends who have helped me achieve things with my horses that I only dreamt about before going blind.

I have been blessed with beautiful foals that have made other families as happy as they made us while they were still here.

I have decided that it isnt the end for us.... God says "my grace is sufficient for you" I will praise Him even in the hard times and not just the good ones.

When I look back over these 30 plus years I have been really blessed to only have a few losses in all that time. There are those here on the board who have suffered that much this year alone.

I still have so very much to be thankful for. You my friends here are on the top of the list!

Thanks so much for being here.

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Lyn[/size]

[SIZE=12pt]Well said, Lyn. I am glad you had time to sit and have a chat with God... sometimes I have those same conversations with Him and I always come away refreshed and ready to tackle life.[/SIZE]

Horses are what keep me sane and satisfied with life... even after a tough day, I can go to the barn and Indy or Finisterre will "smile", Mercy will throw her food dish at me and Intrepid and Freedom nicker a hello. My non-horsey relatives do not understand but to me, that is communication on a simple and deep level and I know I am loved there, too.

I lost a baby in 1987 and it has torn me apart in more ways than I could have imagined. The anger and hurt is still there for many reasons I cannot get into here but he/she would have graduated this year and I still wonder "what if". I contracted insulin dependent diabetes in my second pregnancy and was angry about that since it limited the family I wanted and it never went away. But, I was lucky to get two healthy, wonderful sons and I do not have any damage after 16 years living with diabetes.

Now, one son has "come out"... and I had to look at why. He said that God would not have created him that way UNLESS He had greater plans for my son. I am not sure what that is but this kid has more family and friends that care about him, more courage than most adults and I realized my only hesistation was that I did not want to see anything happen to my son - as parents, that is all we want for our kids. I know a mom whose only son was killed in a car accident last year and he would have graduated at the school I work at. Her courage to get up and still live life is my inspiration.

There is a poem about having stewardship but I cannot remember where I saw it. I had to remind myself many times last year about stewardship when we lost Emily, Ashley and Otis and Indy's foal. The year prior I lost Liberty (my draft mare) and had two dwarves. And now hubby tells me he is sick of the farm and wants to be done with it. :new_shocked: Mind, he doesn't do the horses - I do.

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This year, I have Quinn the cement-headed Lab, Ginger (Siamese) and Lexi (DSH cat) to fill the vacated paw prints - Ginger and Lexi were rescue kitties. Finisterre has taken Liberty's spot and since she was due to be meat, maybe something greater in the universe said that Libby could go home to God make a spot for Finisterre where she would be loved. And I am waiting for Intrepid to foal. I don't have the answers but when I take the time to breathe, sometimes they are right in front of me.

My mom was recently diagnosed with skin cancer. She said God gives us a cross we can bear. Her whole family has died of cancer - to the point that my younger sister made a wry comment - since so many of my family members had gone through a particular funeral home, she told me that our family members don't go to Heaven - they go to Magners. It was a humorous comment in a heartbreaking situation.

While the losses of your lovely mares and their foals is heartwrenching and unbelieveable, just know my Liberty will show them where the best grass is over the Bridge, as I know she does for the angel foals I have had and may God comfort you and your husband and give you the strength you need to carry on.

Denise

Silversong Farm

 

[Jill]

[SIZE=18pt]Lyn,[/SIZE]

I am happy to read this post and wish I was close enough to give you a hug.

Things will be okay in time, and there are many blessings as you know!

Jill

 

[Mijke]

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[MiniforFaith]

: I'm very new to this forum, you are in my thoughts and prayers!! You really sound like you are a wonderful person, you will find a way to help you threw this..

: My heart goes out to you !!

My prayers to you and God Bless!!

Jodie

 

[Anne ABC]

Lyn, you sound like a beautiful person inside and out and I wish I had the opportunity to know you personally. God never puts more on us than we can handle, with his help, he just allows us to grow stronger through his love. Smile every chance you get, life is far to short to frown.

 

[as if by magic 2]

you have found your inner strength and an inner peace..with yourself and your God

we are all pleased you had the courage to seek them both.

 

[Cathy_H]

Lyn, I admire you for feeling that way. I probably would be bitter a bit longer. Perhaps you are being sent a messge. Sometimes those messages are hard to receive as we sure don't like the method of delivery. Bless you!

 

[lyn_j]

[SIZE=14pt]I am better today guys..... I really am. I dont mean that I dont miss Silly any less, only that If I chose to wallow in the sadness, all the other horses here would be sad and I wouldnt have accomplished anything from all this. Fancy and Silly and their beautiful little girls will always be in my heart. They were a gift from God even if it was just to see how wonderfully they were made before they left me. I will cherish their memories.[/SIZE]

The song says" When upon lifes billows you are tempest tossed, when you are discouraged thinking all is lost. Count your many blessings every doubt will fly, and you will be singing as the days go by. Count your Blessings, name them one by one. Count your blessings see what God has done.... count your many blessings , name them one by one.... and it will surprize you what the Lord has done!"

That was my song for today.

Lyn

 

[GREENWOODMINIS]

Lyn, I hope you know just how special you are! I teared up reading your post...and admire you greatly for writing it! My thoughts and prayers are with you always!

hugs,

lis