Shana,
I am so sorry. It is so very hard when you are so close to someone. You and I are both very fortunate to have had our grandmothers live right next door and I understand the deep love that you have for your grandmother as I have that also. Only time helps some. Please take care and know that you are not alone. Your grandmother will always be watching over you and she will definately be smiling with you when you are with your horses as she knows just what they mean to you. And make sure you are strong for your parents as this must hurt just as much for them as it does for you. Sounds like your grandmother was one of the best people on earth. (((Hugs)))