Now that hurts

[RainSong]

I really should have learned better then to eyeball for sale ads for horses by now. I've been lucky though, and up till now, I'd only ever saw one horse that reminded me so strongly of my "Almost Pony", Shadow ( Shadow's Shrine )

Silly me, I'm just cruising the sales board to drool- I've finally gotten to a point where I can look and not end up making myself crazy, or scheming. I can just look, admire, and go "Darn, wish I had the money." ... and let it go. Someday, right?

Then there I am, cruising the board. Checked someone's website. Nothing new. Scrolling through the "For Sale" pics. I saw the colt first, thought "He's cute". Read the info sorta, realized it wasn't just the colt for sale, and glanced up at the second pic...

And blammo. It's like someone just sucked the breath out of me, and I'm staring at Shadow in miniature. At least the first Shadow similiar mare wasn't for sale!

Darnit. She's in Ohio, too

Ah well. The hurt has to get dull again soon, right?

 

[~LadyBug~]

(((Hugs)))) for you!!

I just read Shadows page and I am in tears.

I wish there was something I could do to make it easier for you, but I do believe that in time you will be able to have a horse again!

Ashley

 

[RainSong]

Eventually I will, I know. It used to really tear me apart not being around horses- I just couldn't wait, and didn't want to. I've gotten to the point where I've accepted that it may be awhile- quite awhile- but I will eventually get there.

I swear, I'm going to have to put a warning on that page lol I don't mean to make people cry, but it happens an awful lot.

I have alot to thank Shadow for. I think she knew, somehow. We were both "learning to live again", and she was one of the biggest catalysts for change in my life. She really was, to me, an angel on four hooves.

 

[kaykay]

i so wish you lived closer as you could play with my horses anytime you wanted. i so remember what it was like to despertly want horses in my life and not be able to have them.

Kay

 

[RainSong]

i so wish you lived closer as you could play with my horses anytime you wanted.  i so remember what it was like to despertly want horses in my life and not be able to have them. 
Kay

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Oooh, so do I, Kaykay. And, of course, so I could learn from you, too. If I remember right, you are about an ahour and a half or so away from me.

Did you get any snow today? Don't think it hit that far down- up here, we've got maybe an inch or two.

I did have a gal up here (Sorta- she's in Mogadore) who has big horses (Paso Finos, one of my favorite big breeds)... but she ceased all communications sometime around August of ... er, last year? Or the year before?

I did get the chance to meet one of Becky's (Redrock) friends/clients who lives about half an hour from here back when I first got on this board- that was my first (and only) experience with minis so far. I loved it

I know what I want for Christmas. LOL And haven't gotten since the time I was.... 8? Or younger...

I'm so tempted to go stare at this mare's pic some more... and scheme ways to get the money for her. I have to keep reminding myself about how much pain that would cause.

 

[Pepipony]

That happened to me just this weekend. Been 2 years and blammo, still chokes me up. Dunno when it will stop hurting so bad, but then again, maybe that hurt lets us know we are truly alive.

 

[RainSong]

That happened to me just this weekend.  Been 2 years and blammo, still chokes me up.  Dunno when it will stop hurting so bad, but then again, maybe that hurt lets us know we are truly alive.

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Very true... and honestly, I'd rather have the pain then not. If I didn't have the pain, that means I would never have had the joy of knowing Shadow, the sheer awe from the bond we shared, or the humbling experience of being helped back to myself by her.

Just having known her is worth all the pain in the world; no matter how unexpectedly it pops up.