[SIZE=12pt]Lyn, I'm so, so sorry. Please though, don't rush into getting 'out'. I KNOW the feelings you are having. I had them last year, and it took a long, long time to get over. I had only had my mare for a few months, but I was deeply in love with her, and loosing her (after loosing foals the year before, and another beloved mare that year as well) was just too much to bear. I pretty much threw up my hands and said, that's it. I came very close to dispersing everyone. I was in a severe depression that I didn't even realize until I started to come out of it. I'm back to normal now, but I remember the feeling of complete dispair and feeling like just giving up on all of it. I'm glad I didn't now... however, some of the clean up from that time still isn't done. I have a couple of horses not registered with the AMHA... although I did get the R papers, only because there weren't any problems with it, but there were problems with the A's and I just was in NO shape to deal with it. So I have a bit of a mess to clean up in that regards.[/SIZE]
I do know my days wouldn't be as happy if the horses weren't here, but I truly didn't know that then. So give yourself lots of time to grieve without making decisions you may regret later. It may take some time.