Hello to my friends on here

[FFFoxyGal]

It has been WAYYYYY too long,....

I havent vanished off the face of the earth,....I have been really depressed and busy,..all at the same time,.....My life has been crazy,..as usual,..and I have had a lot of issues to deal with,.....

My dad passed away in september and I didnt have the money to fly home for the funeral,...I had a lot of people against me over that one.

It still hurts,..no matter what my dad did to me, I will always love him and I realize that now,..a little too late,....know I have that guilt for the rest of my life.

I have also been very selfish,..I have left poor fred 2 times this fall,..because ,..I wanted to live in town,..and you know how people will pull you in both directions,..willl I have been very confused and unhappy,..but,...I realize now that " you have to make the best of things and stick things out",....soo,..i am trying to be content with what I do have,..and anyone who knows me,..will now that for me,..It is not easy,...

Plus during November,..I had a real stressful and emotional time with my eldest daughter,......I dont really want to get in to it right now,..but,..I am still hurting over the incident.

Xmas is coming and we still dont have any extra money,...but,..I am really trying hard to find the XMAS spirit!!!!!!

I am going to promise to you guys that I will not stay away this long again,....It actually feels really good to be sitting here typing this to you guys,....

Well,..I must go and catch up on all my reading,...Cant go outside ,..It is minus 40 here today,...brrrr

Talk to you soon,..your crazy and demented friend,..Terri

P.S.,.I have missed you guys!

 

[littlehorse2]

Glad you made it back to us.

Remember you can Pm me anytime you need to vent.

Christy

 

[shane]

HI AND WELCOME BACK FROM IRELAND

 

[C & C Farms]

Welcome back Terri!

 

[Sonya]

Hi Terri - glad your back...just curious, how did that internet job work out for you?

Christmas always seems to be a rough time of year for everyone. I'm hoping you all have a great one!

 

[lilhorseladie]

I have been wondering where you went. I was thinking about posting just yesterday about you. So glad you are ok. I am sorry to hear about your dad though.

 

[Minimor]

Hey Terri, I was just thinking about you the other day; just about phoned, but I'm had a list of things a mile long to do, and that's as far as I got on phoning anyway....maybe this next weekend??? I've been keeping weird hours so when I'm able to phone usually isn't the best time to phone anyone.

I'm sorry to hear about your dad.

TTYL

Holly

 

[Marty]

HI Terri !!!! It's really you! How cool.

Please accept my condolences about your father. No matter what happened, please try not to lead a life on a guilt trip. It won't help solve anything.

I'm sorry about you and Fred too. I do hope things get better for you and it works out for the both of you to be happy someplace, in town or out. You are not alone either. I don't know anyone who's house is in perfect running order and that's just part of living life every day the best way you know how.

Don't worry about Christmas and lack of money or spirit. The spirit and joy will come from within and money or lack thereof can't buy you happiness. Your life will fall in place I promise.

Merry Christmas to you!

 

[Farmhand]

Glad you're back, and things will get better

 

[Relic]

Sorry about your dad.

 

[FFFoxyGal]

AWWW,..thanks guys,.....Yes,..I am going to try hard to make 2006 the best year of my life,..I know I can do it,.....

and I have missed you guys too,..like crazy,....

Thanks for the kind words about my dad,......

My internet job didnt turn out as well as I had hoped,...I did every thing that they wanted me to do,..but,..I got a paycheck for the whole month of $9.58.

Trust me,..I tried not to spend it all in one place. LOL

you guys take care,..thanks for being my friend and have a good day.

TTYL Terri