When I lost my first husband, my dogs were the only thing that kept me going. I wanted to just stayed in bed all day but of course I couldn't. Animals are such great healers and friends, visit your boys often and take those walks with your dogs. I know how it feels when the loss you are mourning is the first thing you think of when you wake up and what you think about all day long. But, one day you will wake up and it won't be the very first thing that you think of. It is going to take some time to adjust to your life as it is now but there will be brighter days to come. (((((((HUG)))))))))