Oh my gosh, Kim, I am so terribly sorry......... I do know what you are going through, it just breaks my heart to hear about this......we still miss Sofie everyday. Yes, we do have two new Ragdolls to try to help us heal a little and it's slowly working, but gosh, we went to the vets today and we saw a picture of Sofie on the board and you know, it still just gets me right in the heart to see her!!
Please know I am thinking about you.....I know what a special bond you and Monkey had....and I also know that another cat will "pick" you to share their lives with!!
Hugs to you.
Valerie