ooooooohhhhhh..I have been following your story and soo hoping that sweet girl would be up and nursing soon.. I am so sorry for your loss, so sorry for the hurt you feel...it is such a sad, draining feeling to know they are gone..many of us have lost foals and it is so very hard.....cherish the time you had with her..you were such an amazing woman to have done all you did for her...just sometimes, things happen beyond our control, beyond our best efforts......beyond our understanding....(((hugs)))) Kathye