minimomNC
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It seems like yesterday that I posted on LB that my wonderful husband, Audie, had passed away. He held on for 4 months until I knew I could go on without him and I was blessed to be with him as he left. It was the most heartbreaking day of my life. But I came here and posted my heartbreak and had some many people share in my loss. I wasn't able to read them at that time, but I did print everyone of them. I still have those and I still go back and read them again and again.
What I have learned in the last five years is, I am stronger than I thought I was. Audie was a true blessing in my life and instead of crying over my loss, I think about what great days I had with him. As he would say, we had more in 4 years than most get in 20. I was blessed. He taught me to love life and to live every day like it was the last, I do try to follow that. I have also learned that I can take care of things in my life, they don't all have to be bad but I can handle the bad with the good. I am the person he helped me learn to be and for that I will always be grateful.
Two wonderful ladies sent me poems that day, I have them on my website on Audie's Page and I read them often. Bess and Davie, I still thank you in my heart everyday for you two gave me, those words meant alot to me and still do. Bonnie, you know why I hold you in my heart and thank you every day. Yes my ears still ring, but I am doing ok. You might not remember telling me that, but I will never forget.
So five years later, I am still around, still going strong and still miss him everyday. But I am still here and love my life, I just wish the one missing piece was still here, and he is in my heart. Thanks to all of my friends who have been there for me, I couldn't have done it without them.
Thank you for all of your kind words five years ago, they still comfort me today.
And to bless this time in my life, we also had our first foal of the year yesterday. A huge thank you to Pam Walsh at Rocking Horse Acres for foaling out our new bay colt, AKS Rendezvous To Remember, sired by Fallen Ash Scouts Red To Remember (World Grand Champion sire) and out of a mare Pam now owns, Wee Equine Acres Moonlight Shadow. This is hopefully one of our show horses for next year which because of Audie, we are able to continue to do. My life is not where I would love it to be, but I am content and thats pretty good.
Here is our new boy at 6 hours old.
What I have learned in the last five years is, I am stronger than I thought I was. Audie was a true blessing in my life and instead of crying over my loss, I think about what great days I had with him. As he would say, we had more in 4 years than most get in 20. I was blessed. He taught me to love life and to live every day like it was the last, I do try to follow that. I have also learned that I can take care of things in my life, they don't all have to be bad but I can handle the bad with the good. I am the person he helped me learn to be and for that I will always be grateful.
Two wonderful ladies sent me poems that day, I have them on my website on Audie's Page and I read them often. Bess and Davie, I still thank you in my heart everyday for you two gave me, those words meant alot to me and still do. Bonnie, you know why I hold you in my heart and thank you every day. Yes my ears still ring, but I am doing ok. You might not remember telling me that, but I will never forget.
So five years later, I am still around, still going strong and still miss him everyday. But I am still here and love my life, I just wish the one missing piece was still here, and he is in my heart. Thanks to all of my friends who have been there for me, I couldn't have done it without them.
Thank you for all of your kind words five years ago, they still comfort me today.
And to bless this time in my life, we also had our first foal of the year yesterday. A huge thank you to Pam Walsh at Rocking Horse Acres for foaling out our new bay colt, AKS Rendezvous To Remember, sired by Fallen Ash Scouts Red To Remember (World Grand Champion sire) and out of a mare Pam now owns, Wee Equine Acres Moonlight Shadow. This is hopefully one of our show horses for next year which because of Audie, we are able to continue to do. My life is not where I would love it to be, but I am content and thats pretty good.
Here is our new boy at 6 hours old.
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