Hey Charlene!
I'm new here, so I really don't "know" anyone, but my thoughts and prayers are with you! My husband lost his mother to cancer too. It was a looooong battle and it was horrible. We understand what you are going through. He sends his thoughts and prayers to you too. We live near Jerseyville, which isn't right next door to you, but it isn't that far away either. If you need anything, send me a private email.
God Bless!!
well hey, howdy neighbor!! you aren't more than an hour or so away. when things quiet down, maybe we can meet, i would love that!
gary woke up this morning for his meds but fell asleep just after nana and i bathed him. he has been unresponsive all day, we have been unable to wake him. the hospice nurse was here this afternoon and said she cannot tell us how long it will be but that it seems the end could be close. she suggested that i cut his dose of methadone in half tonight to see if, perhaps, he will rally tomorrow or wednesday and wake up. his vital signs were all normal. we did put him on oxygen today because his breathing seemed labored. aside from that, he seems quite comfortable and is showing no signs of pain. he is so sound asleep, he cannot even squeeze my hand when i ask.
i am truly at peace with God's wish. i do not want to see gary linger for days and days like this. this is not the man i fell madly in love with. there is simply a body in that bed, a body that is worn out. i discussed with his family today his funeral wishes. it will be simple, nothing elaborate. gary wants a quiet, simple graveside service. i will contact an acquaintance of mine who is a bagpiper. there is nothing more beautiful to me than hearing "amazing grace" on the pipes. i guess i'm doing this more for me than anything else but i know gary would not object to indulging me this one last time. i am hoping to slip away tomorrow to look at caskets and talk to the funeral director. these are things i want to be able to have all done before i actually need them.
thank you again, everyone, for your thoughts and prayers. i know i don't have to ask that you continue to pray for a peaceful journey for my sweet man. i am confident it will be just that. i have so often been thinking about lisa and robert. i do so hope they are surrounded by as much love and compassion as i have been at home.
there is one thing i will ask of you all, just for me. on thanksgiving day, when you gather, please thank God for the continued health and well being of your loved ones. give your spouses, significant others, partners, an extra big hug just for me and tell them that you love them. those words can never been said too many times.
