I am so sorry for you. Last year in June, I lost a "heart" filly. Actually she was a 5 year old mare that I had had since she was foaled. I kept putting off breeding her just cause. We had bred her the month before and she was in foal. She suffered all day, the vet gave her so many lactated ringers I felt she had drowned. Each time a new bag was attached, she fussed. He would not palp her, said his hands were too large. I have not spoken to that vet since. I know that she may have died no matter what, but for some reason, my mind still blames him. If he thought it was so serious, then I would rather he put her down right then instead of allowing her to suffer so. I have been in the horse business for many many years and I know that horses do die of colic, but for this particular filly who I loved, and we were so specially connected to each other, I just can't accept it, to this day. I wish for you peace and my heart goes out to you.