Update; I am in all probability not going to continue with the chemo. They CANNOT explain why the tumor hasn't grown at all since last summer and the dr really doesn't think its because of the chemo. The thing is they are still doom and gloom and they said I have a couple of new spots on my lungs but I have NOT gotten one straight answer from them. I will admit its scary not doing the chemo but I have to say several times they have messed up on scheduling and I have gone several times for at least 3 weeks without it. I could use a lot of prayers right now as this decision is very hard but I truly believe its the right thing. I do A LOT of alternative things and the amazing thing is when I went to get my wig [yes I lost my hair] the hairdresser couldn't tell [still had the hair then, just about a week ago] whether it was for myself or my oldest daughter. She deals with cancer patients all the time and said to me that I should get a second opinion. Well I have had second and third opinions and NOT one of them knows how to deal with me. I have spoken to someone who has survived stage IV pancreatic cancer and now has not one trace of it [heck the guy has more energy than MOST people]. Miracles DO happen I DO believe it without a doubt but this is still scary. I watch my diet very carefully and believe it or not I go out and clean the stalls with my daughter every day and we have been training the shetland to ride. I have held horses for my husband in the bitter cold [probably a big no no] and I actually have gained back some weight. I really appreciate all your thoughts and prayers. The prayers DO WORK I KNOW THEY DO! Love you all, Linda